Sometimes, you are just kidding yourself

At one point of your life, you just might think that whatever you have sacrifice for the one you like now might not be the same in just any moment. One day, the probability that they will still wait for you is only half, and the probability they might just ignore you is another half. Maybe because of that, sometimes I just don't put my hopes too high just in case that they are not waiting. It hurts so much to think that you just couldn't know what is happening across the sea. I always have doubts if anything happen. Others are fine, but how come you seem to ignore everything. I'm sorry that I have doubts on you but sometimes I just must let go what I feel. You,dear reader, I know you must be puzzled with what I'm talking about. Not to mention about my mixed first person and third person are so confusing because this is what I write straight from my heart without thinking. Forgive me :( guten tag.