There's a point when I wanted to post what I've put in queue to post. But sorry peeps, I really can't today. This new news is way more important for me than others. So today when I was in the piano room at school waiting for mummy to fetch me, I got a call from mummy. I basically thought that mummy already arrived. I answered the call of course, and mummy asked me to go straight away to the hospital using the U-bahn. She always change plans at the last minute, so I just can't care less. Like a hypnotize person, I just went straight away to the U-bahn taking my own sweet time and go to Donauspital where the hospital Tok has been staying for almost a month day in and out. On my way there, I haven't really expect anything. Still, when I arrived at the ward, I saw the ambassador's wife, Aunt Jah and Aunt Azian. Being the very youngest for a moment, I of course go and Salam their hands but then they were just like ,"Fatin, go in and see your grandma first". When you are reading this you might already sense that something is happening, right? Well, not me. I was puzzled at that time. I just wish to sit down because of my two heavy bags. I just don't get it yet why are the aunties are being so emotional. Well, not just yet. The moment when I came into the room, Chik, Acu, and Anjang were looking straight to me. I was still, puzzled. I swear to God I would have slap myself if I wasn't too straight. The moment when I saw Tok's head was being wrapped, there was a big pang to me. Mummy looked at me and said," Achik, Tok is gone. And she kept repeating that for several times. I can't really describe what I really feel, but I sure am in a devastating situation when I can't calm myself. I tried to stop my self from crying. But it didn't work. I cried only a lil bit though. I just can't believe that she's gone for good. Not that I'm blaming Him, but just the fact that she was still here yesterday made me cried. I didnt think I even got to apologize to her. I feel so down now. Although I'm not as close as the other grandchildren is with Tok, it's hard because she has been living with me like for my whole life. But of course, I still can't do anything to make her come back to life. I just need to pray that He will make her way easy and be place among the pious ones. Amin.
Good Day readers.
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