EuroQuest Test is just a test so that our Student Counsellor could give advice to us about what course we could take for our IB-Pre Diploma Programme. If you don't know what IB is about, go ahead and Google it. I'm tired already answering what is so and so. Gomennasai.
ATL workshops are for us to know what style learning do we have and it is a massive programme for the grade 10s.
Anyway, just now during we had a 1 hour break, my friends and I just sat at the bench at the field. Weird thing, we didn't talk. None of us. I guess all of us that time sibuk layan perasaan masing-masing. Neither did I thought about breaking the silence. Sekali-sekala, I like it when we were all quiet like that. A rare moment yet cherished? Somehow or other, we never really talk about what we felt. Usually when we hangout, we were only trying be fake, have fun and being immature with each other.
While masing-masing melayan perasaan merenung jauh-jauh, in front of us were a class of primary kids having their PE class. Either grade 2 or 3 maybe. Caucasians, Asians, different races, they were all playing together. Bukan main friendly sangat sangat looking at all of them cheering for all of their friends. By 'friends' here I mean, the whole class, among mates. Jealous pun ada jugak sikit, meriah je, no discrimination. That girl or boy lari laju or slow pun semua cheer kan.
So, why do I have to be jealous of that? Well, I'm not really really good at sports, thus, I'm somehow being discriminated. I don't mind that actually because I have my own so-called "gang" yang tak berapa nak pro in sports too. The thing is that, I am a 50-50. Tak de la teruk sangat in sports then again, tak de 'flair' sangat in playing sports. My "gang" paling pun just sorang je just like me but at least she has the flair in sports. The rest is like 50-60 or 30-70. So how? Me am isolated. No kidding, sometimes terasa. Most of the time? I just couldn't care less.
Human being humans, I have to admit that sometimes I dislike certain race just because of what certain people did to my race. It wasn't at all because of my parents' influence. They do not have prejudice in such stuff, only when I grew up, I happened to be in such environment in the country in which some people just don't like seeing other people who owns wealthiness. What's the word in Malay? Dengki? Yes, I think that is.
When we were kids, we didn't know how to hate, we didn't know how to differentiate, we didn't know colours of skin. All we knew then was to give out 'love' and support each other so that one another would look out for each other. It might be just as well selfish for me to say all those above, but I'm just writing all this on my behalf. Just so that I could at least have a say for my free mind.
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Maybe you are reading this, maybe you are not.
These days, you have been busy;
And sometimes I thought that you were ignoring me.
I don't know if you are aware of that.
But I just want to tell you that..
I miss you.
I might not have the courage to say those 3 words;
But believe me, I will, one day.
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